It has been quite a while since I've done any updates on this site, as I've (unfortunately) started posting on Twitter, most of my thoughts have just been going there instead of here. I will try to change that, and use this more as my main outlet again.

Anyway, that's not what I wanted to write about (the thought just came to me, as I was about to vaguely allude to the topic of this blog post in a tweet). In my new year's post, I mentioned my new year's resolution was writing an album/EP, but I really didn't start working on it at all until just a couple weeks ago. I've been trying to write and record some songs, mainly within the emo metalcore style, which has only lead me to one realization: I can't write for shit.

It just feels so aimless...I can't come up with any interesting riffs/melodies/ideas, and even when I come up with something I like, it feels more like a cheap imitation of something better.
I can't write lyrics, but even if I could, I have nothing to write about. Like what, am I gonna try and write another song about grief? I can't put it into words, less so into lyrics... (I was about to go into further details about my life, but it was starting to read like a sob story, so I'll spare whoever happens to read this, if anyone).

These past few days I've just been thinking about giving up on it, maybe giving up on music as a whole. I'm only getting older, and this is not making me any happier.